Rambler

Well, to start with I need to send a shout out to THE RANTING MONKEY for the very positive comment. I truly appreciate it.
Now, on to my HORRIBLE day that actually started last night with a sick kid and the hubby and I fighting all last night and this morning, which leads to this morning where my little man decided to be the spawn of Satan. gratefully after we got the kids off to school our day improved tremendously.
Mr The Ranting Monkey will understand this one, I had do do something i never wanted to do.....Apply for my old job back at Walmart. It made me sick to do it, but i need to work and take care of my family so i can suck it up and do it.
I have put so many resumes out there and have done so many applications I swear places make the process so hard so people that truly want it are the only ones that finish them.
Wow this is a very rambly post, it truly was not my intention. I actually had some really insightful things i wanted to get out that I had been thinking about last night when i couldn't sleep. Oh well I will save those for a later date.

From the survivor

For over 15 years I have been a victim, maybe not by my standards but by those of society. Its hard for me to admit that a few terrible things that happened to me when i was a child, left me a victim for all these years but it happened. just now recently i decided that i am no longer going to be a victim but a survivor instead, I have been on this journey for over a year and I would like to think I have came along way. I am going to be a better person for it in more than one way.
They say to forgive the people that have hurt you because you are doing it for you self, but in my mind I can never forgive him but I can forgive myself for not forgiving him and that is OK because God will forgive me as well. In my opinion there are just some things that can never be forgiven. That does not mean I am a bad person, just a realist who does not hide my head in sand, just like saying that everything happens for a reason, I call BULLSHIT on that one as well.
i will not apologize for my ramblings.

a starting point

I doubt anyone, anywhere will ever read this, but that is okay with me. I got the whim to do this from a friend with his own blog. I thought i would give it a try. I went with the name Inside the mind of ...... because I am many different things so its hard to say where certain posts may come from (for example mom, wife, daughter, friend, survivor, well you get the point.) They may be random and told in no particular order.